...

Is this ennui I feel
or detachment?
Oh! for the ability to discern...


I smile and charm
Even as I watch myself - 
Sometimes in quiet wonder,
At others with growing disquiet - 


That itself enchants me enough.

Now

The butterfly of happiness
alights on our shoulder
For just a split second...
Why then, can we not
Savor that moment
Instead of worrying that it
Will fly away soon?
Why must we live
in anticipation of a moment
That has not yet come
Or in a moment 
That will be gone?
Wouldn't it be beautiful
if we live the moment that's Now?
What a calm soul
that enjoys the butterfly
perched on the shoulder, right Now...


~Undated, written WAY bac when...

Flown...

It's all in the past
We couldn't make it last
No matter how much we loved,
No matter how hard...
Love came into our lives,
Touched us, whispered in our ears,
danced around,
Brought a twinkle to our eyes
for many-a day
And a dream to our souls
many-a night
....and then...
Love flew away.

~Undated, from WAY back when

Baffled...

There's one part of my heart that doesn't want to let you go,
That part of me doesn't want me to give up,
Never mind your silence, the no-response.
That part of me remembers the good times, the smiles,
the laughter, the joy, the good times spent together.
That part of me cares...and knows you care too,
You're just going through whatever you're going through
And when you're through with that, 
We'll be back to sharing our joys, our sorrows, 
our tears and our moments of fun.
But there's another part of my heart that whispers,
"It's time to move on, the friend you so long for,
their part in your life is done."


I'm baffled - which part of my treacherous heart
is echoing back what the Universe is telling me,
I'm stupefied - which part of my heart do I pay heed to?
Do I hold on to you or do I alter my promise, give up on you and let you go?