Butterfly

Wrapped in my cocoon,
So tender, so soft;
Lost in my world -
Two rooms and a loft;

Suddenly I felt
An un-scratchable itch -
Someone was poking me,
Pushing me out of my niche.

I tried to save myself,
The invasion continued;
I started to move -
And suddenly became unglued!

As away from me,
My blanket was dragged
I cried, my heart died,
I hurt and unceasingly bled.

I struggled to shield
My eyes from a deep blue sky
Only to find
This urge to soar high...

An urge that's given me wings
And a whole new world to try...
Wings with which, among other things,
I'm on my way to being a beautiful butterfly.

I (don't) Write - LVII

Nothing's changed
Yet what has, is a lot
I'm the same person
And yet I'm not
There's a part of me
That's gone away
And yet I'm alive
As before, I have
A million thoughts
Tumbling through my head
And yet
I can't put them down
No longer
Of pain, of delight
Can I say
I write.

Without you...

There's an awful emptiness without you

There's an uneasy stillness within me

All I want to do is reach out

All I can do is let it be.

Waiting to Exhale

Stomach clenched
Fingers tense
A furrow in my brow
A million thoughts
Tumbling through
Yet quietly
My pain I bow
I raise my chin
And smile a smile
A warm hello here
A flirty nod there
Melody in my voice
Holding back a stormy gale
A big gulp of family and friends
Joy and laughter
And all the while…
I’m waiting to exhale.

A Picture is Worth...

...A sudden spurt in interest
...A whole lot of phone calls
...Numerous messages
...Sudden popularity
...A whole lot of attention
...Unabashed flattery...

A picture is because of a lot of chutzpah
A picture is because of a lot of attitude
There's a thinking mind that lies beyond the body
There's a hopeful heart that lies behind that smile
None of which were noticed all this while

A picture, people, will suddenly make you -
You, poor downtrodden, brushed-under-the-carpet,
Hurt-when-the-mood-so-demanded, you
The king or queen of style.

4 New (To Me) Pick Up Lines

These were pick up lines that got used on me this May:

1. My children are wailing - will you be their mamma?
2. Will you take me home with you?
3. I'm lost, but you look like you could be my room mate. Take me home!
4. You look like you need someone to protect you. That someone is me.

And my favorite...

Reporting for my new job ma'am. (At a quizzically raised eyebrow...) I'm your bodyguard. I shall guard your body with my life all my life. :)

I Died...Again

No songs to share
No souls to bare
This wall between us
Doesn't allow me to dare.

No dreams to dream
No hopes to hope
One quick decision
And we're at the end of the rope.

I know I will go on
I'm just made that way
My grief, my mourning
Will not see light of the day.

The only difference
Invisible to you which will be
Once again, dying,
A small, precious part of me.

Take Care of You

I bite my finger
It's not the same
As your nibbles -
I whisper your name

I run my fingers
Through my hair
It's So different
When you're not there

My heart quickens
When I think of you
I quell the beat
And the welling water too

I get angry with myself
I can live without you
Yet, terribly, I miss you
And know you miss me too

Do I understand this
Can't say I do
Yet however hard it is
I shall not be blue

Your reasons are yours
My thoughts are mine
All I'll say is Bless Your Heart
And hey - take care of you.

You...I...Sigh...

Time sighs in my heart

as a thought of you waves by

I'm sitting at a train stop

wishing I could fly

The distance between us

has suddenly become too much

No sweet nothings

no goodbyes

I'm feeling left out on the porch

it's making me sadder

As I look for the truth of the matter

I get no answer from within

From you I get no reply

just simply in my heart

A tiny, imperceptible sigh